when i was a kid lying in my mama’s bed.
i cry whole night never want her to go…
Then she narrates me the story with her voice low,,
so dat my brother won’t woke up..
n she doesnt had to try hard to keep both of us shut up..
her story was never same,,
i dont know… how she changes all name…
wenever i caught her playing this trick..
she js kept on narrating despite of my lilte feets kick…
i dont know when the sleep covers me n hide me…
but wenever i wake up i find her besides me..
wen i become litle young about the age of six..
i cant sleep widhout her not even wid her pics..
i stil remember when once you left me to the aunts house…
i cry whole night hiding my face under my own gloves..
you have beaten us many a times,,now i know y..
you want us to held pain deep inside,,
n still got that much guts to smile..

Wana sleep but can’t…you are there in my dreams,,
Surprisingly you can’t hear all my screams,,
Walking alone thinking whats my sin,
To erase memories is there any medicine,,
enough of this life without you,
trust me i never doubt you,,
you are happy thats what i want from my life,
now you are……i’m glad…… so cut me with the knife,,,,

or you can help me to get over this pain,
u can hold my hand n take me out of dis broken lane,,
js wait… look back I”M not dead so……so…….
JUST shoot me again…

(chorus-1)
shoot me i’m not happy i’m not sad,,
so js shoot me again in the head……i’m not dead(yet)
I m not dead…

if we get what we want we will never cry,
luck comes only after we try,,
my luck was you,now you n ,will you,
n it will remain… till you,yeah til you,,
i can’t watch u with him you know,
nothing left now to show,,
every one is asking me to grow,
but HOW no body know,,
i can’t even touch you in the memories,
i read you all but you like summaries,,
why? you broke my heart into pieces,
why don’t you gave chance to all my teases,,

(chorus-2)
don’t worry now i have solution wid me,
close your eyes i wanna tell you surprisingly,,
just pull the trigger aim the center of my head,
SHOOT me again i’m not dead,,
just do first n last favour,
break watever stil holding “our”,,

I don’t wana see any more left unsaid..
so just shoot me in d head,,,,i’m nt dead

shoot me….shoot me,,,,,,,,,..shoot me

Enough of waiting,now I m sick of this queue..
Feeling disgusting of thinking what I do for you..Now I want something to be done for me..
I want to dismantle myself into pieces…for me..
Then I wana join that pieces in the way I want them…to be..
I know I m playing with me with no mercy..
Whether I will win or lose,I will be no more I can see..
I want to act more brutle more ruthless..
So that I can entertain you with my own bloody baths..Life is not a easy game,you change I stay same…
I still put you upfront right before my name…
But I m sick of praying no one hears me..
I m getting lost,my own shadow fears me..
Don’t want my legs anymore on that paddle ring..
Enough of walking toward you now I want swing..
Don’t show me you are sweet,you are innocent..
I know you make fun of every letter I ever sent..